Miss you Darling!!!

•October 26, 2009 • 2 Comments

I was leaving from work,
Suddenly got a memory jerk!

I found I am missing something over,
I pondered for a while to discover,
I had carried my proper stuff,
But something was tough.

I realized, I am blue,
Coz I have not been seeing you,
I was not feeling complete anymore,
I didn’t see the fresh roses on my table,
That kept me going every day.

I am missing your short glances ,
I didn’t see your smiling face,
That gave me warmth for so many days.
Our body was different,
But the soul will always be one.

I want to pour my heart to you,
I wish to talk endlessly only to you,
I want to put my head on your lap,
And fill all the hidden gaps.

I want to share things with you,
I want to lessen my burden,
I want to control my flowing thoughts,
And run towards your broad shoulders!

Come quickly towards me,
It’s YOU whom I wish to see,
For you, I am waiting,
Till eternity!!!!

Song of love

•September 29, 2009 • Leave a Comment

I am smiling all the way,
I am happy throughout the day,
I am singing & dancing,
I am asleep but my thoughts are alive!

Today, we sorted our differences,
Misunderstandings don’t hold any chances,
We have good stuff to talk,
As arguments have gone for a long walk!

Coz here comes the day,
When I and him are together again!
Love showed its might,
And suddenly there is nothing to fight!

I can feel the warmth when cuddles me,
I am secure in his arms,
I see his love filled eyes,
I see his gasping lips!

Eager is his face to express,
He wants nothing to suppress!
His unsaid emotions say it all,
Coz I always know it all!

My face is glowing,
Coz the joy is intensely flowing,
I cannot stop the desperation,
Coz in my heart is the endless passion!

We live for each other,
We dream of our future,
There is only one thing- Love
Infront of which we take a bow!

I will always be there for him,
When he fumbles,
When he is blank,
When he falls,
When he falls lose,
When he has nothing left to choose
I will give him my hand,
So that he can again stand!

Want to live, but can’t live….

•September 7, 2009 • Leave a Comment

I wonder how God made love,
My eyes are filled with tears now,
My arms are empty,
My lips have gone silent.

How do I make you realize,
That saying “I love you” isn’t suffice.
Love is made of two souls together,
Only then things can go further!

I sacrificed my stuff,
To show and how much I love,
But you never made a li’l compromise,
Thus today I am paying a huge price.

It’s not a teacher-student game,
It’s a beautiful love filled frame,
Where you aren’t listening to me
But we both portray our future.

All I can say is-
I gave everything to this relationship,
And I believed-
It’s when we two are one,
We have fear of none.

I wished I was your responsibility,
But your words treated me a liability,
I was the one who could feel your every throb,
How could you leave me to sob?

You proved that I was mistaken,
Suddenly my heart was frozen,
To my surprise, you asked me to end this-
Left me thinking what caused this mess?

I thought I was the only one for you,
But later got to know-
That you were my only priority,
Still I remained an option to you!

I have left things to God,
I hope He understands,
That I wish to leave you,
But I cannot ever live without you!

My best gift!

•August 3, 2009 • Leave a Comment

m11This is a story I wish you guys should read. The story is about the smallest living being in my family-Miku. Probably the last cat in my house. The story is of a little snowy white, cotton skinned kitten, who entered our lives way back in July 2006.

It was a sunny afternoon, after the rain had been pouring since morning. I had just entered home from my TY classes. I threw my heavy bag in one corner and opened the sliding door to look at the view outside. I gulped the lunch unwillingly and was briskly going through the books.

Suddenly I heard some strange sounds. It looked like a little toddler was crying. Hospital being in the opposite side, I thought, it might be a small kid. I ignored that and carried on. Again, I could hear voices and this time of a tiny kitten. I suspected that it was a kitten’s voice. I immediately rushed down stairs, and searched in my building premises. But I wasn’t lucky to find anything. Again came the sound “Meow Meow” and I turned back.i went on the road, and there was an auto rickshaw standing. There he was! Somewhere near the auto. I thought he was sitting on the auto rickshaw seat in a cozy position.So I probed further. I did not find him. I asked our watchman to find the kitten and after few minutes, he shouted “Beta, wohh tyre mein fuss gaya hai” (which means it is stuck in the auto tyre) I was desperate to take him off the tyre because the rickshaw driver would come and unknowingly drive it off. The kitten is so small and helpless that he cannot protect himself. I took this up and tried to put my hand inside the small portion near the tyre, and everytime I put my hand in, the kitten bit me or scratched me with his sharp nails. He had the fear that I will harm him and so he was damn aggressive. I peeped inside the portion and saw a creature. I pulled him and finally he was out of it. He was exactly my palm sized , white and brown combo , cute pink nose and blue and green eyes. Ya, I mean it, he had one blue eye and one green eye!!! He was scared and shivering to death. I picked him up and placed him in small safe place. It was yelling, may be it was hungry. The voice irritated me and at that moment I wished- why can’t cats talk?

It was 6 pm and since it was rainy season, it became dark early. It started pouring cats and dogs again. And the kitten was in big trouble. I had full plans to bring that kitten home. But since I already had one big tom cat-Tiku , I knew my parents would never allow. I was trying to persuade my father that the kitten would soak in the heavy rains and die. He agreed after an hour. We went down and tried to pick him. We did all possible exercises -jumping, hopping, running and finally Dad could finally catch hold of him. We took him home. Mom and Tiku gave us a stern look. Reasons were different. Mom was irritated coz she had one more responsibility and the Tiku was furious coz his love would probably get divided. Sibling rivalry types. But we managed to get through. It was approx 50 days old. We wiped him and tried to give him warmth. We named him Miku. To save from Tiku, Dad made him sleep with me. He used to yell all night and till he settled, I had sleepless nights. After a month or so he settled.

But since he was too small, I couldn’t take the risk of leaving him alone. Locking the door was a must. It will sound so funny but I used to take him along with me to the loo just coz Tiku won’t catch hold of him around. After a few days, he was totally settled and we used to feed him regular stuff-roti, milk etc. He took his sunbath in our window every morning.But he never grew. I was scared if he was facing a problem called Dwarfism. His size was the same for a year or so. We tried to feed him much more , but his size was unchanged. Probably he was missing his mother or fellow siblings. Since I was at home in the afternoons , I used to train him about going to washroom if he wants to pee, and he picked up really fast. Everytime he wanted to go to the loo, he used to give me a strange look and silently went to the bathroom and did all his activities. He strictly went into the toilet only.He assimilated more in our house. And gradually, we introduced him to Tiku. We weren’t sure about how Tiku will react but he took it pretty well. Initial grudges changed to calm expressions and finally one day- the cheering moment…Miku and Tiku started being together, playing with paper balls, tying the ropes around themselves and untying it back, playing with their own tails, and being weary and sleeping. Miku used to survive on bolied food. He was a saint I guess.Further they were the best companions as whole day they played, ate ,slept together. But there was one more aspect to this story-tiku turned into a Mom. Miku thought Tiku is his mother and started going behind him like a shadow. Tiku also used to proudly carry him along. Both were happy by now and our tensions took rest. Both used hug eachother and sleep in their small bed. They shared the same blanket too. They were soulmates. Miku used to bite Tiku hard, but Tiku used to bear and let go him coz he was younger to him. Miku started eating well and his health improved.

I wondered what a miniature he was! And 2 years later, he was a huge tom cat! I could pick him in my arms, but he grew so fat that when he danced on my tummy, my tummy used to ache. He was God damn heavy! At that moment I realized, every living being needs someone or the other to love, and take care of them. All need warmth and affection.The difference is humans don’t accept their dependency while dumb animals are happy that they have someone around. With Tiku around, Mika developed a lot-health wise and mentally too. Companionship and love can work wonders.

Miku completed three years in this july, and sadest part is the blue-green eyes were his ornaments, and we found out that he is blind. He cannot see us.he used to dash onto the walls, he used to tremble while walking, he couldn’t react to darkness and light. But one quality of his took me back to the Ankhein movie-where Paresh Rawal, a blind guy, pit patted the steps and walked around the room. Miku did the same thing. He knows the way towards washroom, bedroom, his bed perfectly. He has his particular calculations and he reaches his destination accurately. I , once closed my eyes and walked around the house, but I bumped my head on a wall. I soon realized how difficult it must be for him to survive. He cannot see this beautiful world, us, his own body and his soul mate tiku. Unfortunately, tiku left us, we tried to search him, but probably he got crushed under a vehicle we suspect. Mika was shattered. Everyday he used to search him in every room. He wasn’t confident and changed to a scared cat again. He is still that way. He gets mad when too many people come around. He was unsure of things now. He lost his friend and his will power too.

He is still like that and when I look at him, tears roll down my cheeks. He doesn’t react much. He yells loudly. He doesn’t go to the bathroom, he falls down seldom, he loses his cool and becomes wild. But I know he cannot help this and he is not at fault too. I just hope God is with him.

He is the best gift I have got till date. And this is the most happiest moment of my life coz first time I felt I gave one creature -support and life. He was about to die but he was guess the fittest at that moment and so he survived.

Life can be beautiful!!!

•July 22, 2009 • 1 Comment

rhucha newI know there would be one day
Which would be the most beautiful day,

Brightly in the sky, the sun shines,
Dazzling all the way are my eyes,
I am no more blue,
As the surroundings around are lush green.

No people to think off,
There would be nothing I am scared of.

Life would take a positive curve,
Excitement will flow from every nerve,
Delighted would be the body,
And to ruin that, there won’t be anybody.

Happiness will have no bounds
There would be no worries to mount,

There would be one day when I climb the ladder of success,
And there is no thing that could suppress,
I want to smell and feel the love
Coz I know there would nothing tht’s above.

All will sound perfect,
I won’t worry about any bad aspect.

Sadness would take a break,
My heart would no more ache,
Happiness would take the lead,
Tht’s all I need.

There won’t be anything worst than this,
The thoughts proves to be a bliss,
Everything has gone for a toss,
Utimately its me who will carry my own cross!

When i lost on everything!!!

•July 14, 2009 • 3 Comments

RH37Love heads towards the road of failure ,
When simple arguments turn to a torture!

The insults cut the mind deeply,
The bad words pierce my ears,
The hand suddenly turns rough ,
Every expectation becomes a obligation!

We couldn’t swallow a bite,
As we were immersed in our own might!

I just wished that you understand my feelings,
And you come to know my emotions had hidden meanings!

Never did you smile at me,
Never did you tell me,
To sit and talk,
Coz for you it was jus a casual walk.

Silent dialogues bring lovers together,
We changed that definition to misunderstandings altogether!

You saw the tears rolling down my cheeks,
How could you ignore my meek?
You saw that false grin,
And how can you be so mean?

We lost our love to everyday clashes,
And easily forgot the memory flashes.

I want to fight this gloom,
And want everything to bloom,
I am into total despair,
As I know everything is beyond repair!

How could you?

•July 8, 2009 • 7 Comments

untitledHow could you go silent?
When my mind was in a torment?

How can you trust any other?
When I am your mirror?

How did the smile come?
When my face was numb?

How did your fingers not miss me?
When my fingers din’t tangle in yours?

How did ur heart not go thumping?
When my heart stopped beating?

How could you not think about me once?
When I stayed up thinking, all night?

How could you ignore my tears?
When you cheered me up all these years?

How could you not see the pain?
When I was all drained?

How could’nt you see, in my eyes, the fear?
When you knew we were’nt nemore near?

How did you let me go?
When all ended just because of the flow?

How did you watch our bond bleed?
When you knew we are in need?

I wonder you did not think off,
The huge waves we looked at,
The air we took breath in,
The sun and the moon-
Who were our love messengers.

I am forced to think,
If loving you was right?

I am lost,
I am hurt,
For you, it’s not a big deal,
The wound you gave,
Cannot heal!

MY FANTASY!!!

•July 5, 2009 • 3 Comments

rhucha updated

When I open my eyes,
I want to see you sleeping besides me,
I am trying hard to loosen your grip,
Avoiding the early morning slip.

Your fragrance that I can smell,
Your silence has many things to tell,

I am pouring hot tea in the cup,
There are some biscuits served,
We are engrossed in a conversation,
And end up in strong fascination.

Staring at eachother so closely,
We could read our souls flawlessly.

Noone in this world can understand us better,
As we know eachother!

Out of many things I see,
There is one thing that melts me,
And that is your smile,
I don’t mind going an extra mile,
For you my Love!

I would be shattered without you,
Just know I am living for you!
My life would be clattered without you in it,
As I know you are my perfect fit!

WHEN SECONDS SEEMED AGES!!!

•July 4, 2009 • 3 Comments

rhuchammm

I wished the clock refused to tick,
I wished that our hearts instantly click.
I wished that moment stopped right away,
I wished the memories stay.

My heart wants to stop you,
There is nothing much I can do,
Waiting for you to look back once,
As if we are moving apart for months.

Crave to pull you back towards me,
And cooling the fire inside me,
Dissolving my desperation,
Awaiting for your reaction!

You moved to your home,
Leaving me alone,
I took my road too,
Knowing my love is true!

Late in the night,
I was sleeping tight,
My phone rung,
And finally you sung,
I LOVE YOU!

That was the time I fell for you,
Knowing that my love is true!

God – my best guest!!!

•June 30, 2009 • 6 Comments

untitledI happen to be a strong believer of Lord Ganesha. Since I realized God exists, I have worshipped Him.I was a regular at the temple nearby and I had a dream that – The elephant headed, charismatic ,mighty idol should once visit my place. But due to some or the other reason, it never happened.

The thought dissolved my mind and I went on with my own work. One day I was walking inside my building compound, and I found a petite mouse like, auburn coloured creature, lying under the bench. It was a 1 month old kitten! Beautiful bluish grey eyes which were constantly looking for his mother, small hands and legs that were excited to jump and explore the world around, but he was so weak that he had no strength to even meow. I felt like it has so many things to say, but his body wasn’t permitting him.

Realising that it was pouring, I picked him up and took him home. For 3-4 days, he was struggling to breathe. He was not even able to eat or drink. But on day 4 he showed some improvement. I could breathe a sigh of relief. He used to do nothing but yell loudly. Hence we named him “Siren”. My parents clapped , and they used to talk everything possible in marathi to that kitten.I fed him, I put him to sleep everyday on his little bed I prepared for him and another 3 days passed happily.Whenever he screamed on top of his voice, mom used to pick him up and this guy kept quiet and slept. After all that was mother’s touch, it ought to be the best. Later when we weren’t at home whole day, my mother used to wrap her duppatta around him. Surprisingly he was habituated to that thing. It was almost 7 days, he was with us. I had no clue that the worst is yet to come.

Suddenly, On the 10th day, he was panting. He was finding it difficult to breathe, and soon I realized something very sad is going to happen. That day, the whole day I was with him. At night my father asked me to be with him. I was lying down, controlling the uncontrollable tears dropping down my cheeks and upon my tummy was the little one. I managed to sleep and so did Siren. On the 11th day,I woke up in the morning and went upto my father to enquire if all was ok, I made a hand gesture to him saying if all was okay, expecting a very positive reply though I was prepared. My father nodded his head and said “everything is over”. Siren left us that morning. My heart sunk.

After we buried him, my dad, mom and myself were sitting in our hall and Mom realized that she wrapped around her duppatta like everyday when he was yelling, but she had high temperature then. The little one seemed to be afftected by that as he was already extremely delicate. We avoided that thought.

When we came out of all that incident, we noticed that the kitten was with us for 11 days-just like Lord Ganesha is! It was my belief or may be my faith that just to fulfill my wish, He visited us. He was in between us, we served Him day and night, and finally leaving memories for us, He left. I did not know how to react to this situation-If I should be happy for the fulfillment of my silent wish or if I should be sad that the little one left us.

Certain things don’t have answers and this is one of them. Certain things make you happy but last for a little time and this is one of them. Certain things are destined and this is one of them.